T H R E E O F H E A R T S

Saturday, October 24, 2009 (1:15 AM)

tonight, i found someone in the same boat as i am
fortunate in many ways yet unfortunate in some ways
who says bring rich means you have everything
sure i can shop
sure i can eat good stuff
i can do many things
but in order to have these some other things in life have to be sacrificed
it's the way god designed it

i strongly believe in karma
do good things and you will be rewarded
but it doesnt mean u will have to be rewarded in this lifetime
it may be next lifetime

i am not complaining my life sucks
its great
i am very grateful
but there are some imperfections
so dont always think everything is perfect
it is not

Friday, October 23, 2009 (7:23 PM)

i have always been someone that didnt let certain things take control of me
i was always the one that was in power
but after so long
and after certain 'stuff' happened
makes me just want to let myself go this time

i want to yet i dont want to
i cant help myself from feeling this way
its always one after another
the better one wins and the loser never has the chance to even be in that position
never once
maybe it is asking too much
i dnt know
may not have the qualities that is needed
but has certain charm to it

i want to yet i dont want to
i long for yet i stay away

(7:20 PM)

lately i have been trying to make up for things i didnt do in the past.
some things have amazed me
making me ponder on why i didnt do so earlier
and all the chances i missed
i wanna start over
all over
and make a change

and if i could relive those moments, i would

(7:13 PM)

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.