today was supposed to meet li hua and joycelyn at 10 at jp for the medical check up thing. but then leii was too tired so pushed it to 1130.
left the house at 10.45 cause i tot the bus would take like 30 mins to arrive but it was quite fast la so i reached jp ard 11 15. then asked li hua where are they then they said they were at sp.. wah nearly fainted. i waited for them for one and a half hour ok! it was so damn retarded walkin about jp for one and a half hour lor

anywaes went they FINALLY arrived lols so we went for the checkup and everything blablabla then came to the urine test lols put the cup there so weird sia. then after that went for xray then had to take off the top and bra and wear a gown wa feel so empty lOL hahaha

anyways went home then slept until 630 that was the time i was supposed to meet li hua but i still arrived earlier than her lols. then had the meeting blablabla super boring then papa call mi rush mi home faint

lols!! ytd sat so high lor!!
after the scout promotion thing mi jy lp and christine went to kfc for lunch
then eat finish le mi and jy walk homoe together
lols super high lor! i also duno why hahha
then i keep singing songs composed by mi out of the blue lols
then got bus or car drive past then i go salute them!1
LOL lor! hahha then jia ying keep saying she duno mi ma
so i shout out that i am lim jia ying
i even spell the name out hahahha
also duno why so high
lol
then reach jy house le ma then i dun wan her to go home
so i keep dragging her further and further away from her home
BUT she managed to escape mi hahaha so just say bye then go home!!!
then on the way called her and started crapping like asking her to beware while showering causeshe may never know wat's there!! lols

breathing difficulty
duno why
but H seems so scary suddenly
so monster like
temper flaring up agn?

was having dinner the other day
when i suddenly saw scenes flashing across my mind
there was a scene
i was in it
i could tell that i was being put in a veri difficult position
i was in the middle of it all
the shape of a triangle
i knew what t meant immediately
then i started to feel weird
this weird feeling
it cannot be described
i then lost my appetite thinking about that scene
i felt so lost
so confused
so frustrated
so sad

i hate this feeling
i tot it would not come back since i was sec 1...




what to do..

my friend asked mi a qn
left mi speechless
but i still answered
i lied
but i had no choice
i had to

filled with guilt
confusion yet agn

what am i wishing for? i don't know
i do not want to take the wrong path
both paths have their own disadvantages and advantages
the first one is very welcoming
full of beautiful flowers, brids, butterflies
the sun fills u with such warmth making u feel safe and loved

the second path is somewhat a cooler path
mani tall yet wonderful and amazing trees are planted along the path
thunderstorms happen once in a while
making everything go wrong
but this path is sealed for now..
will it be open?

what will i do?
what is 3rd and 4th paths appear?
which will i take

omg omg omg!!!!! omg!! i love u mel!!! lols! mel suddenly talked to mi online and asked mi wat school and course i went to. so i said sp and interior design! and she like same!!!! i was like super uber duper high la!!! i tot i would not have a fren there! omg omg omg!!!
so high then went to enroll online at the same time lol super jing zhang sia! but managed to finish it lols

today did my first round of searching for "jobs".so damn tiring. old liao i guess
met jia ying at my house at 10 then went a to a few of the terrace houses there but super hot and some scouts already did that place so we left for jp.

reach jp le then went in search of hdb flats then saw some scouts then they started saying things like eh this is my territory get lost la blablabla then jy say eh i bigger than u hor i venture hor! lols super farni.

then walk here and there asked here and there then earned about 58 today. then met mani kinds of "customers" lols then got this woman, i rang her doorbell then she from inside shout super loudly BU YAO!!!!! lols super scary sia. then got another 2 malay kids super cute and veri! nice i ding dong then one young girl and her young bro donated me money. the girl donated $2 and the boi donated $3 they super cute! then the girl is actually a cub scout! her mum says that she likes adventure alot lols.

hated the dogs scare mi every single time stupidddd! then jy do halfwae then dun wan do le then she just pei mi.then lunch went to subway at jp and eat.. then blablabla slack there for about an hour or so and continued with more job searching.lols after doing about 4 blocks then went to 7/11 then went home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally.. legs suan back suan shoulder suan lols

why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?! why?!

argh!!! making it seem like there were chances.
argh!! brother this brother that
to the hell with brothers !!! ARGH!

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why?
i thought there was a chance!

why must it be this way?
why can't it be the opposite?

acting so concerned
acting like there is hope after all
but all lies and drama

now all hope is lost...

lols just came back from the scouts training camp.
super fun!!!

i reached ad 11 plus in the morning(ytd) and then li hua and lay peng and some other ventures were already there! tsk tsk tsk never tell mi they gg to stay overnight! then actually onli went back to take job week card from sir but decided to stay and help them cook lunch!! so much fun! ms kang and li hua took turns cooking the beehoon thingy then i was like chopping the sausages. then my friend was like eh rachel u dun cook at home de right? lols he could tell. so obvious anywaes. lol

cook here cook there then cook finish! finally lols. jia ying never come zhen de shi veri wasted! anywaes... they eat finish le then need to continue with their training. sherlyn was the most pitiful one. sighs see her also feel sad for her. cause my sir appointed her as the SPL for a while (cause he wanted to see who was fit to be the SPL) and then her troop members and herself keep making mistakes so she had to take the responsibilty mah so i think she ran AT LEAST a hundred rounds ard the canteen not including the one ard the courts. my sir said tat she should have run about 8km! but she did not give up she was determined! which is veriii good!*thumbs up* tsk tsk hmm i think if it was mi i would have died run 2.4 also like wanta my life le lols. anywaes..

in the afternoon the SPL changed to yu xuan!!! the way he gave his first command so cool. lols then the scouts had to fall in in front of the rifle range and had a few minutes to take out alll the wood used for pioneering out. then after everthing was out, my sir gave them 2 mins to clean up the rifle range. then they fall in agn and my sir inspected the place and found it still dirty. so of course he was not happy la then he gave them duno 3 or 5 mins to put back all the dirt. lols!! they super stunned lor!!! lol lol all of them were speechless then they started to find dirt la then tore pieces of cardboard and threw it everywhere. lols heng never ask them to clean up agn. lol

their next thing was, they had to build a tripod in duno how mani minutes and the one with the shortest tripod would have to run 10 rounds ard the bball court! then the next hour or so they had to dismantle the tripod then rebuild it then build the first lvl then dismantle the whole thing then build it again with 2 lvls then take it down agn. so ke lian right!!!! then suddenly our sir reminded us about dinner lol. so li hua made spaghetti! hmm looks nice but the taste was ok la. lols then not enuff sauce for the leaders ma then our caveman sir wants alot of sauce so li hua cook agn. then put nodles in his mess tin le then i told weilin to cover the noodles with sauce and boy, that was ALOT of sauce. lol! then when i showed my sir he was shocked! he wondered if there was spaghetti inside lols. so farni.

anywaes!! eat finish le then they had their night activity after a while. their night activity was quite scary? i duno. if it ws mi i wun dare la so ya. anywaes jin wei was the first person. but his job was easy as the lights were still on and he onli had to open the gate which had access to the 2nd lvl. but he took SUPER long to go up. he was too scared but he did it in the end and we cheered for him! then the next few had to go switch off the lights everywhere. then sir asked hari to switch off the 2nd storey the lights then he was like aiya! easy la! then sir told him to go back then he asked vikram to go up lols! super farni sia! vikramswitch it off liao then he look ard hten wa! he pratically flew down! lol! then hari was luffing the loudest.

then next was hari agn. this time his job was not easy lol. he had to go up all the way to the fourth lvl, walk all the way to the end, (which means walking past all the super dark classrooms, by now the whole school was dark) and go down lvl by lvl switching off all the lights on each floor then walk past all the way to the staircase on the 2nd lvl to go back. lol. superrrr farni! then lingesh and the others went to scare him! lols! could hear him screamin!! hahaha lol lol lol hmm it was fun. then the others had to go up to the fourh lvl walk all the way to the end of the corridor and by right they had to shout out their name but they were made to say just nicknames. lol and of coz as most of the girls were screaming lol.

after that we played hide and seek. the troop was divided into 2. one hide and one catch. so the grp leaders were 2 jrs. then my leader hor, tsk i was leaning on wei lin then she called wei lin, then i after wei ln move then i wen to lean on li hua then she called li hua, then i went to lean on lay peng then she called lay peng.. T_T but after lay peng she called mi lols.
farni.hmm when the game started, mi lay peng and li hua went to hide in one of the tents. after a while, there was still no one so we just chatted abit. lols then suddenly we heard someone coming. then marcus found us! lol then he was like sir say someone sure at the campsite and told him to check and so suay he went to his tent to look first and we were insde then we were like wa lao.. then he said of all places u want to hide in MY tent lols oh wells.

blablabla then everyone went to slp. then mi and wei lin filled up the bombs with water and wee keong, ram, farhan and sir helped to tie them. then after 2 hours, they went to bomb te scouts tents lol.! then they said asfari was being bombed by 8 bombs but he still veri slowly put on his specs and his socks! so farni!!! then got another 2 scouts who were just so tired, they just sat on the grass and told the leaders, aiya u want to shoot u faster shoot us la we veli tired! so l-o-l right!! so cute sia the scouts hahaha then after the bombs have finished everyone went back to slp without any more training in themiddle of the night.

hmmm then after that everyone slowly one by one went to slp then i was the onli one awale then walked ard the school then chatted with my friend on the phone till they woke up. then b4 he called we were messaging ma then he said he was playing online pool with 2 of his friends ( he was having a camp too) then he said they were watching porn while playing pool with him so farni sia! then he said they kept winning but b4 that he was winning them. so i said the porn gives them the energy and strength lol and it was proven lol lol. then after an hour plus, the scouts started to wake up then i hanged up and then asked sir wat time their breakfast was then he said 7.30 and asked where li hua was cause she was supposed to prepare but i said she is slpin so let her slp then i go make the milo. lols my milo mai guang!! hahaha hmmm then the tired feeling started to kick in so went home with li hua and amanda. then went home showered, went downstairs watched tv then slowly fell aslp lol. slept for about 3 hours then had to eat lunch with ah gong.

then we ate at thai shark's fin then my ah gong gave mi $250 bucks to pay for the lunch. then i was like wow if there is change i am sooo gonna put in the job week card lols. then in the end my brother signed the bill so which means i could keep the money. but i gave $100 each to my bros and kept $50 for myself casue i was contented with $50 in my job week card from my ah gong but then my eldest bro said i could keep the hundred dollars so ..hmm good la! lols

2006: used to send emails every min..
it was fun and happy to receive and read
sweet talk but empty promises
still ended up leaving anywaes

Hmm!!!! today went ard with mum and bro in search of my dad's b'dae present tho it is apr cause my bro is flying off to switzerland. SO!! he wants to buy it in advance!
hmm then went ard to places like louis vuitton.. mont blanc..tag heuer blablabla to find sunglasses which are polarized. then went to chanel to take a look in the end mi and my mum ended up lookin at bags!
llolls then saw the new arrival bags! my mum should have bot the bigger one for herself but she did not like the extra pockets at the side so.. in the end she bot mi a handbag black in colour but the grey and white one was wayyy nicer lols. one thousand eight hundred and fifty lols! then she said it would my b'dae presesnt for 5 years!
then i told her that she could take it back lols
after buying went ard and ended up in Dunhill and bought my dad a jacket. hmm nice comfortable lols just what he likes.

talking to you makes my heart race
though it was just for a while
everything was like perfect

not knowing much about you
but still smth draws me near to you
love? i dun think so
i guess it is infatuation

want to know you more
but smth is blocking the two of us

hmm!! was being posted to sp interior design lols. still unsure about that course but i heard that Qian Qian got into same course as mi! well i am glad that at least there is someone i know!! lols
hmm hope all my "courseless" friends can get into a course pls pls pls!

will never forget the days..
especially the ones right after and before national day..

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